Why I Stopped Making Art for a Very Long Time

Mountains and Valley Landscape
watercolor painting by Veronica Bouchard

Did you know I stopped making art for a very long time? It happened when I fell into a deep depression. It was the time leading up to, during and after I divorced my ex. After taking such a long hiatus it was so hard to get started again.

I feel like it’s finally time for me to confront all the reasons I stopped making art and begin to create strategies to get back into my art making practice.  First I want to confess how guilty I feel from not making art for so long. I was neglecting my passions and part of my identity. I always remember one of my mentors casually stating that those who don’t make art for extended periods of time aren’t real artists. This comment still haunts me and makes me feel like I have to prove myself as an artist.

One of my biggest obstacles was losing my support group. I stopped making art when my ex moved us hundreds of miles away. At the time I felt like I lost my family, my friends and every creative person I knew.  I was in a new place with no one to encourage or support my art making. I quickly became so lonely and fell into a depression.  It stunted my creativity, I couldn’t find the energy or the motivation to paint. This is the biggest hurdle that I’m trying to overcome.  

Where I live now I don’t have any artist friends in real life so I am trying seeking them out online. I’m trying to immerse myself in communities on Instagram, reddit, youtube, facebook, ect.  I haven’t quite found my place yet but I’m already feeling so much more encouraged. My next step will be trying to make those connections in real life. I can be  fairly shy when it comes to putting myself out there so we’ll see how it works out.

2 thoughts on “Why I Stopped Making Art for a Very Long Time

  1. If you need a friend to talk to, I’m still here. Life has changed a lot since high school but I’ll never forget our friendship.

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